Greetings all,
I hope you are doing well. I've had a cold for the past week which is just now really starting to dissipate. I was very disappointed because I had been doing so well this fall about not getting the seasonal sinus crap. Last year I spent over a month (actually close to 2) being ill during the fall and winter. I had a lot on my plate emotionally speaking.
Being empathic or sensitive has its drawbacks. One of them is that my health mirrors my feelings quite a bit. It is one of the reason some people view me as distant. I really try not to get upset or be in the middle of upset (haha life kind of requires that). When I am overwrought emotionally you'd be astounded how quickly I come down with something, sometimes within hours. Of course that is usually after weeks of burning the candle at both ends. I do tend to keep pushing myself and then get all frustrated when my body goes, "Hold up there partner I'm sitting this one out!"
This all stems from me trying to avoid confrontations with everybody. Not a healthy habit I know, and one I am seeking to change. I have to be pretty mad to call someone out. This completely shocks people when it happens, they think they're dreaming or have strayed into the Twilight Zone. I am downright cruel when I get that angry. That silver tongue of mine has a sharp edge when it is pointed at someone. Now usually someone has worked hard to get me that angry, so some might say they had it coming. I would say that or part of me would.
The thing is you really can't make someone else responsible for your emotions…even if you are empathic. Not unless you want to live life in a bubble or in constant victim mode. See the thing is if someone has brought me to that point of fury odds are I haven't said anything to them. I haven't just taken them aside and said, "Hey what you just did is not okay with me." I could make excuses as to why this is. I could say I did use to do that then I met an emotional tyrant who turned that against me. It would be true and what is also true is that everyone else in my life is not that person. (If however you are that person and you are reading this blog looking for a response here it is……ten years of silence was your response).
How does this apply to you? All of us sometimes behave as if the person in front of us is someone from our past. We live in our memories especially in our close relationships for those are the ones that have the most potential to hurt us. It is hard to be vulnerable. It is something I personally struggle with as I am sure many do. I don't think there is any spirit or deity that would judge us for this paralysis of emotion. I am able to do my work without mastering this. I could happily go on with my healing practice helping people even if I never progress into this level of vulnerability. It isn't about anyone else. Similarly whatever emotional or personal challenge you experience has no bearing on your "worthiness" it only affects the level of enjoyment you will take in life. So maybe try to grow and change or not, either way know that it is only ever about you. How do you feel?
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Musings
Friday, November 15, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
The First Commandment
Greetings everybody,
Lately I have been posting on Facebook about the First Commandment. This is not to be confused with the judeo-christian First Commandment. I think it was watching a few videos about Russell Brandt's new messiah tour that sparked the idea. In this age of wireless connections how can we know how our digital footprint will affect those yet to come into the world. I thought well if on the very off chance that I become a messianic figurehead to some new sect of religion after I die, I wanted to go on record firmly about what I considered the most important guideline to live one's life.
The First Commandment of Thomas Mooneagle also happens to be the only commandment. It is quite simply summed up as, "Don't be a dick." It really is that simple. Everything else is just filler. The feast of the Mooneagle where you bring out the eagle piñata filled with after dinner mints is just spectacle. The plate spinning rite is a metaphor. Any other ritual, ceremony, or bit of prayer is simply a way to distract the mind long enough to let you receive this great truth. The world doesn't need more teachings. It needs fewer people being cruel to one another.
If I take this ego trip for the full ride and I think I should, it will become apparent that even this simple truth will most likely be obscured in time. Scholars would argue about the literal meanings of "being a dick". Perhaps extreme feminists will take it to mean that men are inferior to women and must be firmly controlled and silenced. Others will perhaps advise self mutilation of the offending male genitalia. Even the enlightened few who know that the "being a dick" refers to behavior will quibble over what constitutes "dickishness". Will dietary restrictions and clothing proscriptions be issued?
This is why I struggle with organized religions. So sure of themselves and their scriptures, trying to define and categorize the infinite using the finite. I am not suggesting that we abolish religion. I do think it is merely a starting point in our exploration into the infinity of consciousness. I have never heard of a deity described in a way that would do infinity justice. Spiritual community is important, but when it becomes too insular it becomes more extreme and judgmental. People begin to selectively apply their beliefs to fit their egoic needs. As we know the ego needs to feel special and likes to compare itself to others (well I do anyways). One of the easiest ways to do this is to make others less worthy than yourself according to your belief structure. In Anne Lamott's book Bird by Bird she wrote one of my favorite quotes of all time, "You can safely assume you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do.”
So what does this ego trip of mine into my possible rebirth as a messianic figure have to do with you? Are you taking something too literally? Are you following the form and losing the spirit? Are you making things more complicated than they need to be? Are you being a dick to someone? Are you being clear with your words? In a recent visit to a future potentiality my descendants shared with me a secret, "Be careful what you say for your words are with us still." Given the nature of the internet they may have a point. Ponder these questions and contemplate the possibility of yourself as a holy figure. What message would you leave behind?
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Lately I have been posting on Facebook about the First Commandment. This is not to be confused with the judeo-christian First Commandment. I think it was watching a few videos about Russell Brandt's new messiah tour that sparked the idea. In this age of wireless connections how can we know how our digital footprint will affect those yet to come into the world. I thought well if on the very off chance that I become a messianic figurehead to some new sect of religion after I die, I wanted to go on record firmly about what I considered the most important guideline to live one's life.
The First Commandment of Thomas Mooneagle also happens to be the only commandment. It is quite simply summed up as, "Don't be a dick." It really is that simple. Everything else is just filler. The feast of the Mooneagle where you bring out the eagle piñata filled with after dinner mints is just spectacle. The plate spinning rite is a metaphor. Any other ritual, ceremony, or bit of prayer is simply a way to distract the mind long enough to let you receive this great truth. The world doesn't need more teachings. It needs fewer people being cruel to one another.
If I take this ego trip for the full ride and I think I should, it will become apparent that even this simple truth will most likely be obscured in time. Scholars would argue about the literal meanings of "being a dick". Perhaps extreme feminists will take it to mean that men are inferior to women and must be firmly controlled and silenced. Others will perhaps advise self mutilation of the offending male genitalia. Even the enlightened few who know that the "being a dick" refers to behavior will quibble over what constitutes "dickishness". Will dietary restrictions and clothing proscriptions be issued?
This is why I struggle with organized religions. So sure of themselves and their scriptures, trying to define and categorize the infinite using the finite. I am not suggesting that we abolish religion. I do think it is merely a starting point in our exploration into the infinity of consciousness. I have never heard of a deity described in a way that would do infinity justice. Spiritual community is important, but when it becomes too insular it becomes more extreme and judgmental. People begin to selectively apply their beliefs to fit their egoic needs. As we know the ego needs to feel special and likes to compare itself to others (well I do anyways). One of the easiest ways to do this is to make others less worthy than yourself according to your belief structure. In Anne Lamott's book Bird by Bird she wrote one of my favorite quotes of all time, "You can safely assume you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do.”
So what does this ego trip of mine into my possible rebirth as a messianic figure have to do with you? Are you taking something too literally? Are you following the form and losing the spirit? Are you making things more complicated than they need to be? Are you being a dick to someone? Are you being clear with your words? In a recent visit to a future potentiality my descendants shared with me a secret, "Be careful what you say for your words are with us still." Given the nature of the internet they may have a point. Ponder these questions and contemplate the possibility of yourself as a holy figure. What message would you leave behind?
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Day of the Grateful Dead
Greetings all,
I am sorry to be late again. I am really trying to not make this a habit, but events as you will see sometimes mess with our plans. So this weekend was one of my teacher's Day of the Dead celebration. It was a glorious festivity. I brought a carload of friends to the party. I was snagged the moment I walked in the door by my teacher to decorate a sugar skull.
There are a few things about the Mooneagle you should know. If you give me colors and something to decorate I bliss out. I love making things! I love spending time with friends. I love good food (it was a potluck and there was deer chili yum!!!). I also love ceremony and we did that up right too. We did despacho ceremony to honor our ancestors and ask for their blessings. Despacho is completely different from gazpacho, the former means gift, the latter is a cold soup. (I suppose you could cook gazpacho but like revenge it is a dish best served cold).
Each of us added to the despacho, both items and prayers. When they are assembled they are very colorful with flowers, candies, chocolates, ribbons, wine, and sugar. You can get very creative with them. So yes they are a blast for someone like me. They are also very sacred when done with respect (which does not exclude laughter around the table). Any chance I have to participate or create one I jump at. I love working with the spirits and making them presents.
So the bonfire accepted our despacho package. We sang, we beat our drums, rattled our rattles, didjed our didjeridus. The night wore on and we went to work painting our skulls (again more colors more bliss). Everyone was having a blast. Then life decided to step in and one of my dear friends took a false step off the ramp on the porch and fell down…hard…very hard…so hard I was terrified she might have broken her neck. The party was definitely over.
Funny thing about this was earlier that day I had put a new battery in my car. It had been giving me warning signs that it was on the way out. I am grateful, usually it is a complete surprise when the battery goes dead with this car. I also put a full tank of gas in the car. Well my friend had a compound fracture and needed to goto the hospital and ended up having to have an operation. The hitch was they lived in a town about two hours away. So one of the friends I gave a lift to offered to help me get the car back to her house so her husband could drive it up later. We drove most of the night.
I wondered today after I finally slept about the ceremony and the ancestors. Where were they when this happened? Well now that I look at the situation I can clearly see their hands all over it. No they didn't push my friend off the porch, but they did guide her fall so that she didn't break her neck or back. I had several warnings that I needed my battery replaced and hadn't been stranded in the process. I had just enough people riding with me to be able to bring my friend's car back to her husband. Spirit kept me safe and alert on my midnight drive, and we made it down to her place in fairly record time without speeding. It was rather unbelievable. We even managed to sing a bit to keep our morale up.
So what in the world does my day of the dead escapade have to do with you? Well is there any situation in your life that isn't ideal but perhaps is getting you ready to deal with something else in a way to mitigate disaster? Are the spirits softening the blows just enough so you can get what you need done? Are you recognizing you are protected even in the midst of calamities? I for one am grateful for the dead.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
I am sorry to be late again. I am really trying to not make this a habit, but events as you will see sometimes mess with our plans. So this weekend was one of my teacher's Day of the Dead celebration. It was a glorious festivity. I brought a carload of friends to the party. I was snagged the moment I walked in the door by my teacher to decorate a sugar skull.
There are a few things about the Mooneagle you should know. If you give me colors and something to decorate I bliss out. I love making things! I love spending time with friends. I love good food (it was a potluck and there was deer chili yum!!!). I also love ceremony and we did that up right too. We did despacho ceremony to honor our ancestors and ask for their blessings. Despacho is completely different from gazpacho, the former means gift, the latter is a cold soup. (I suppose you could cook gazpacho but like revenge it is a dish best served cold).
Each of us added to the despacho, both items and prayers. When they are assembled they are very colorful with flowers, candies, chocolates, ribbons, wine, and sugar. You can get very creative with them. So yes they are a blast for someone like me. They are also very sacred when done with respect (which does not exclude laughter around the table). Any chance I have to participate or create one I jump at. I love working with the spirits and making them presents.
So the bonfire accepted our despacho package. We sang, we beat our drums, rattled our rattles, didjed our didjeridus. The night wore on and we went to work painting our skulls (again more colors more bliss). Everyone was having a blast. Then life decided to step in and one of my dear friends took a false step off the ramp on the porch and fell down…hard…very hard…so hard I was terrified she might have broken her neck. The party was definitely over.
Funny thing about this was earlier that day I had put a new battery in my car. It had been giving me warning signs that it was on the way out. I am grateful, usually it is a complete surprise when the battery goes dead with this car. I also put a full tank of gas in the car. Well my friend had a compound fracture and needed to goto the hospital and ended up having to have an operation. The hitch was they lived in a town about two hours away. So one of the friends I gave a lift to offered to help me get the car back to her house so her husband could drive it up later. We drove most of the night.
I wondered today after I finally slept about the ceremony and the ancestors. Where were they when this happened? Well now that I look at the situation I can clearly see their hands all over it. No they didn't push my friend off the porch, but they did guide her fall so that she didn't break her neck or back. I had several warnings that I needed my battery replaced and hadn't been stranded in the process. I had just enough people riding with me to be able to bring my friend's car back to her husband. Spirit kept me safe and alert on my midnight drive, and we made it down to her place in fairly record time without speeding. It was rather unbelievable. We even managed to sing a bit to keep our morale up.
So what in the world does my day of the dead escapade have to do with you? Well is there any situation in your life that isn't ideal but perhaps is getting you ready to deal with something else in a way to mitigate disaster? Are the spirits softening the blows just enough so you can get what you need done? Are you recognizing you are protected even in the midst of calamities? I for one am grateful for the dead.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Sunday, October 27, 2013
The Way Through the Fire
Greetings all,
Late again Mooneagle is what some of you may be thinking. Well better late than not at all. Please bear with me though I've had an eventful week. So much crammed into one space in time I can hardly believe it. I'm wiped out today, but I have my commitment to you and so I am writing as best I can.
The week began with glazing my pots for the kiln. This continued for a few days. My sprayer seems to be broken. Once more I have hit a roadblock with firing. It is the process which turns the impermanent clay into long lasting stone (providing you don't drop it). This last phase of translation from idea to fully formed reality has always been a challenge. Chemicals and clay interact within the heat and fire forming the surfaces and colors that will seal the form into coherence. The fire changes the form and look of a glaze. The color of the glaze doesn't match the color in the mixing bucket. The red looking glaze turns yellow in the fire, the brown turns blue, and okay the green stays green but it is a different green than you see going on the pot.
I was in a frenzy to get this done before the weekend. I was on the road once more this time to Bardstown for the final weekend retreat of the shamanic 2 year program. This has been my journey through the fire. The heat of the spirits' kiln transformed the structure of my life. My relationships melted, fused, cracked. My concepts of myself and my fears (yes my dears I do have them still) shifted. It was sometimes smooth and other times a storm of emotions. So I have come through the fire and here I am transformed, more coherent, full of color.
As I unloaded the kiln this afternoon (I did that before I unpacked) I noticed that the lids on some of my jars were stuck. I wasn't worried. My first teacher showed us how to take something heavy and lightly tap the surface of a jar listening to the vibrations. They change tones right before the lid pops off. It looks like a magic trick when you do it and who is to say it isn't one. So I sat down and tapped my jars, lightly striking them, shifting the vibrations of the vessel until the lid freed itself. I got to thinking that is what these initiations did. They struck me lightly (it doesn't feel light but spirit knows how hard to hit to change the vibration) to get the vessel of my spirit "unstuck". The vibration must change before something is freed from within. Sometimes it is jarring to the self, okay most times it is jarring (haha pun jars, jarring). However it is the only way to become unstuck, to open. I've seen people in their impatience strike a vessel too hard or too soon, and it shatters. Spirit knows what we need to grow and free ourselves.
So my dear readers how about you? What is shaking you? Is it shaking you up or shaking you loose? I can tell you I had my heart broken during this time of initiations, and I can also tell you it has come together more whole than it was before. So before you label something as a setback, tragedy, or loss (and it may be all these things) remember to ask what is being freed in you? What has passed through the fire? What remains, and what is yet to become?
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Late again Mooneagle is what some of you may be thinking. Well better late than not at all. Please bear with me though I've had an eventful week. So much crammed into one space in time I can hardly believe it. I'm wiped out today, but I have my commitment to you and so I am writing as best I can.
The week began with glazing my pots for the kiln. This continued for a few days. My sprayer seems to be broken. Once more I have hit a roadblock with firing. It is the process which turns the impermanent clay into long lasting stone (providing you don't drop it). This last phase of translation from idea to fully formed reality has always been a challenge. Chemicals and clay interact within the heat and fire forming the surfaces and colors that will seal the form into coherence. The fire changes the form and look of a glaze. The color of the glaze doesn't match the color in the mixing bucket. The red looking glaze turns yellow in the fire, the brown turns blue, and okay the green stays green but it is a different green than you see going on the pot.
I was in a frenzy to get this done before the weekend. I was on the road once more this time to Bardstown for the final weekend retreat of the shamanic 2 year program. This has been my journey through the fire. The heat of the spirits' kiln transformed the structure of my life. My relationships melted, fused, cracked. My concepts of myself and my fears (yes my dears I do have them still) shifted. It was sometimes smooth and other times a storm of emotions. So I have come through the fire and here I am transformed, more coherent, full of color.
As I unloaded the kiln this afternoon (I did that before I unpacked) I noticed that the lids on some of my jars were stuck. I wasn't worried. My first teacher showed us how to take something heavy and lightly tap the surface of a jar listening to the vibrations. They change tones right before the lid pops off. It looks like a magic trick when you do it and who is to say it isn't one. So I sat down and tapped my jars, lightly striking them, shifting the vibrations of the vessel until the lid freed itself. I got to thinking that is what these initiations did. They struck me lightly (it doesn't feel light but spirit knows how hard to hit to change the vibration) to get the vessel of my spirit "unstuck". The vibration must change before something is freed from within. Sometimes it is jarring to the self, okay most times it is jarring (haha pun jars, jarring). However it is the only way to become unstuck, to open. I've seen people in their impatience strike a vessel too hard or too soon, and it shatters. Spirit knows what we need to grow and free ourselves.
So my dear readers how about you? What is shaking you? Is it shaking you up or shaking you loose? I can tell you I had my heart broken during this time of initiations, and I can also tell you it has come together more whole than it was before. So before you label something as a setback, tragedy, or loss (and it may be all these things) remember to ask what is being freed in you? What has passed through the fire? What remains, and what is yet to become?
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Prosperity or Abundance?
Greetings all,
As I sit typing out this blog post a steady rain is falling outside the picture window in the house where I am staying this week. The leaves are in the middle of their turning here and the next cross quarter day is coming up in two weeks. I've been pondering the seasons and the nature of the cycles, how it affects my energies as well as humanity as a whole.
I've done a lot of work on abundance over the past few years. I've seen good results, but that ease still sometimes eludes me. I got to thinking about prosperity because we say a lot about manifesting abundance. What I learned when I did all the work to prepare for my abundance download was that abundance was inside of us already. It was written into our very genes and the genes of all biological organisms. Nature is abundant. The thing about nature is not all the fruits are ripening at the same time. It is the same with opportunities, not all chances are present at every moment. Sometimes it really is a "if you call now" moment (to borrow a phrase from infomercials).
So I started thinking about prosperity more. I may not have it right, but it is a theory I am working on. Abundance is present in the universe by default. Lack is something man made (at least that is what my guides tell me). I began theorizing that prosperity is how we manage the abundance of life. Think about it if you have a huge crop but don't harvest, it will rot in the fields. If you have weeks to complete a project but don't start till a few days before the deadline and fail to complete it, then it wasn't the lack of time it was how you managed it.
For myself it has been about how I manage my time and talents as well as where I put my efforts in letting people know what I do. As I have become more consistent and focused I have been rewarded with more. It's almost as if the Universe has a safety mechanism built in. It sees I am handling what I have already and then adds more to the mix. I have to take what I do seriously or no one else will (not too seriously of course because I wouldn't be the Mooneagle if I was too serious). Using the tools I have adeptly makes that abundance multiply and that is when I prosper. To simplify, abundance is the energy and prosperity is how I use it. If I manage to use it wisely then it feeds back on itself keeping the system running with excess energy.
Again I am not sure this is the "truth" if such a thing even exists, but it is an interesting idea to ponder. It is like the Temperance card in tarot. I often interpret that card as having all the ingredients you need to create a solution or overcome a challenge. The raw materials and opportunities exist around us. The first step is waking up to the fact of abundance the next step where so many of us struggle is learning to use what is in ourselves to channel that abundance.
So how can you apply this? Good question I am so glad you asked. Look around you. What are your resources? What are your talents? (Don't say you have none that is hogs wash). What knowledge do you possess? How can you apply what you have and know to change? What if you knew you had all the tools and materials you needed to build a new life? How would that change your approach? Do leave comments and feedback as this theory is still a work in progress.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
As I sit typing out this blog post a steady rain is falling outside the picture window in the house where I am staying this week. The leaves are in the middle of their turning here and the next cross quarter day is coming up in two weeks. I've been pondering the seasons and the nature of the cycles, how it affects my energies as well as humanity as a whole.
I've done a lot of work on abundance over the past few years. I've seen good results, but that ease still sometimes eludes me. I got to thinking about prosperity because we say a lot about manifesting abundance. What I learned when I did all the work to prepare for my abundance download was that abundance was inside of us already. It was written into our very genes and the genes of all biological organisms. Nature is abundant. The thing about nature is not all the fruits are ripening at the same time. It is the same with opportunities, not all chances are present at every moment. Sometimes it really is a "if you call now" moment (to borrow a phrase from infomercials).
So I started thinking about prosperity more. I may not have it right, but it is a theory I am working on. Abundance is present in the universe by default. Lack is something man made (at least that is what my guides tell me). I began theorizing that prosperity is how we manage the abundance of life. Think about it if you have a huge crop but don't harvest, it will rot in the fields. If you have weeks to complete a project but don't start till a few days before the deadline and fail to complete it, then it wasn't the lack of time it was how you managed it.
For myself it has been about how I manage my time and talents as well as where I put my efforts in letting people know what I do. As I have become more consistent and focused I have been rewarded with more. It's almost as if the Universe has a safety mechanism built in. It sees I am handling what I have already and then adds more to the mix. I have to take what I do seriously or no one else will (not too seriously of course because I wouldn't be the Mooneagle if I was too serious). Using the tools I have adeptly makes that abundance multiply and that is when I prosper. To simplify, abundance is the energy and prosperity is how I use it. If I manage to use it wisely then it feeds back on itself keeping the system running with excess energy.
Again I am not sure this is the "truth" if such a thing even exists, but it is an interesting idea to ponder. It is like the Temperance card in tarot. I often interpret that card as having all the ingredients you need to create a solution or overcome a challenge. The raw materials and opportunities exist around us. The first step is waking up to the fact of abundance the next step where so many of us struggle is learning to use what is in ourselves to channel that abundance.
So how can you apply this? Good question I am so glad you asked. Look around you. What are your resources? What are your talents? (Don't say you have none that is hogs wash). What knowledge do you possess? How can you apply what you have and know to change? What if you knew you had all the tools and materials you needed to build a new life? How would that change your approach? Do leave comments and feedback as this theory is still a work in progress.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Saturday, October 12, 2013
On Delay
Delay on,
Hello everybody it seems this week has had the universe teaching me patience and trust. At least that was the lesson plan. I'm pretty sure I bombed the pop quiz. I got upset and went into fear and those dark places in my head. There are some pretty chancy neighborhoods found behind my eyes.
It started with my youtube channel finally approved to receive ad revenue (thank you loyal viewers). Within twelve hours of that I had 2 or more copyright notifications sent to me about some background music (white noise to drown out household sounds). After a few hours of sheer panic that I might lose my channel I ended up taking down a handful of videos (some proactively and now it turns out unnecessarily) that set me back about 14,000 views so now it will be a few months to be back where I was in the view ratings. I had clients delay sessions or cancel for rescheduling. (Guys if you haven't heard back from me yet I haven't forgotten I am on the road). Then of course there was yesterday's 3 hour trip to ULE which turned into a 6 hour slog with detour after detour.
I'd like to say through my delays I've kept a level head, breathed deeply, and trusted the universe's time table. I'd like to say that but I have been on an emotional roller coaster the past week. I was very snippy with people yesterday while trapped on the interstate. (It might have something to do with the fact that I needed to goto the bathroom and I also hadn't had any lunch). What was really highlighted for me was how poorly I reacted when things didn't go the way I wanted or had planned them. I mean I was such a little brat. Then I was annoyed at myself for acting that way which made it worse.
Looking back there are a few silver linings which I was hard pressed to realize in the heat of the moment. With my videos I now have the opportunity to record new ones on some of the old subject matter. I've grown a lot in the 4 years since I jumped on the youtube band wagon. So there will be new and improved videos about playing with time and entropy. Good news for you, but still kind of a bummer for the lost views for myself. The clients that needed a reschedule gave me extra time I needed to prepare for my trip and a bit of breathing space. My detours and delays on the road may have actually saved my life. I started an hour later than I intended and the road ahead had been closed due to a very serious accident. For all I know, if all had gone as I had planned I could have been a roadside casualty.
So what about you? How does this apply to you? Have you been experiencing delays or obstacles in your path? Have you moved with it or have you resisted? Have you just relaxed into trust in the moment allowing things to unfold? If you haven't been the most accepting of what is don't worry just notice and see what other options the universe is dangling in front of you.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Hello everybody it seems this week has had the universe teaching me patience and trust. At least that was the lesson plan. I'm pretty sure I bombed the pop quiz. I got upset and went into fear and those dark places in my head. There are some pretty chancy neighborhoods found behind my eyes.
It started with my youtube channel finally approved to receive ad revenue (thank you loyal viewers). Within twelve hours of that I had 2 or more copyright notifications sent to me about some background music (white noise to drown out household sounds). After a few hours of sheer panic that I might lose my channel I ended up taking down a handful of videos (some proactively and now it turns out unnecessarily) that set me back about 14,000 views so now it will be a few months to be back where I was in the view ratings. I had clients delay sessions or cancel for rescheduling. (Guys if you haven't heard back from me yet I haven't forgotten I am on the road). Then of course there was yesterday's 3 hour trip to ULE which turned into a 6 hour slog with detour after detour.
I'd like to say through my delays I've kept a level head, breathed deeply, and trusted the universe's time table. I'd like to say that but I have been on an emotional roller coaster the past week. I was very snippy with people yesterday while trapped on the interstate. (It might have something to do with the fact that I needed to goto the bathroom and I also hadn't had any lunch). What was really highlighted for me was how poorly I reacted when things didn't go the way I wanted or had planned them. I mean I was such a little brat. Then I was annoyed at myself for acting that way which made it worse.
Looking back there are a few silver linings which I was hard pressed to realize in the heat of the moment. With my videos I now have the opportunity to record new ones on some of the old subject matter. I've grown a lot in the 4 years since I jumped on the youtube band wagon. So there will be new and improved videos about playing with time and entropy. Good news for you, but still kind of a bummer for the lost views for myself. The clients that needed a reschedule gave me extra time I needed to prepare for my trip and a bit of breathing space. My detours and delays on the road may have actually saved my life. I started an hour later than I intended and the road ahead had been closed due to a very serious accident. For all I know, if all had gone as I had planned I could have been a roadside casualty.
So what about you? How does this apply to you? Have you been experiencing delays or obstacles in your path? Have you moved with it or have you resisted? Have you just relaxed into trust in the moment allowing things to unfold? If you haven't been the most accepting of what is don't worry just notice and see what other options the universe is dangling in front of you.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Identity
Greetings all,
This week has been all about emotion it seems. I've been busy in the studio and planning for the month of October. I have two trips scheduled, some teaching, and in person session opportunities in Ohio. Every so many months I check in on some of the metaphysical message boards to see if there are any topic threads I find intriguing or if there is someone looking for some information I may have come across in my development. I found one post by a skeptic that really got me thinking. A lot of people tended to tell them that they were approaching consciousness technologies improperly (they meant well I am sure). I am pretty sure now that the original poster never saw my response which is unfortunate. I think I may have been one of the only people to suggest they get medical care from a licensed provider. Still in my response to their post that all this stuff was new age bull, I came to a personal realization that may help not only myself but all my clients to deepen their experience.
The person was dealing with severe depression and while I think psychiatric care is essential in such cases I also know how much perspective can affect treatment outcomes. I sensed that this person had their identity tangled up with their diagnosis. In such a case how could any treatment shift them out of their condition? How do you shift into "not you"? If you and your condition are entangled at such a deep level that you consider it part of your identity I don't see how you could become anything other than that condition. Before dealing with any condition it would be wise to determine to what degree it is used in defining someone's identity. This will vary of course depending on temperament, attitudes, social feedback, paradigm, and just how much they trust authority figures (such as health care providers in this instance) to dictate reality.
I began to see how many times I defined myself by a condition or limitation. Rather than experiencing a condition I become it. Now I am not suggesting we ignore serious physical or psychological conditions what I am suggesting is that we stop identifying ourselves by them. I have started working on my own self using energetic shifting techniques to first disentangle my identity from specific conditions or limitations. I've also started testing it out on a few close friends (oh you brave few beta testers). So far we have all experienced a more expanded feeling. Still identity is nothing if not a habit. I suspect it will take a sustained effort over a period of time to disengage our identity from our conditions.
How about you? Do you define yourself by a medical problem, relationship challenge, or psychological condition? What would happen if you defined your identity by your passions, your strengths, and your aspirations? Who would you be without your "issues"? Are any of them serving a less developed part of yourself? So if you are not your conditions, issues, or challenges who are you? Let me know when you find out.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
This week has been all about emotion it seems. I've been busy in the studio and planning for the month of October. I have two trips scheduled, some teaching, and in person session opportunities in Ohio. Every so many months I check in on some of the metaphysical message boards to see if there are any topic threads I find intriguing or if there is someone looking for some information I may have come across in my development. I found one post by a skeptic that really got me thinking. A lot of people tended to tell them that they were approaching consciousness technologies improperly (they meant well I am sure). I am pretty sure now that the original poster never saw my response which is unfortunate. I think I may have been one of the only people to suggest they get medical care from a licensed provider. Still in my response to their post that all this stuff was new age bull, I came to a personal realization that may help not only myself but all my clients to deepen their experience.
The person was dealing with severe depression and while I think psychiatric care is essential in such cases I also know how much perspective can affect treatment outcomes. I sensed that this person had their identity tangled up with their diagnosis. In such a case how could any treatment shift them out of their condition? How do you shift into "not you"? If you and your condition are entangled at such a deep level that you consider it part of your identity I don't see how you could become anything other than that condition. Before dealing with any condition it would be wise to determine to what degree it is used in defining someone's identity. This will vary of course depending on temperament, attitudes, social feedback, paradigm, and just how much they trust authority figures (such as health care providers in this instance) to dictate reality.
I began to see how many times I defined myself by a condition or limitation. Rather than experiencing a condition I become it. Now I am not suggesting we ignore serious physical or psychological conditions what I am suggesting is that we stop identifying ourselves by them. I have started working on my own self using energetic shifting techniques to first disentangle my identity from specific conditions or limitations. I've also started testing it out on a few close friends (oh you brave few beta testers). So far we have all experienced a more expanded feeling. Still identity is nothing if not a habit. I suspect it will take a sustained effort over a period of time to disengage our identity from our conditions.
How about you? Do you define yourself by a medical problem, relationship challenge, or psychological condition? What would happen if you defined your identity by your passions, your strengths, and your aspirations? Who would you be without your "issues"? Are any of them serving a less developed part of yourself? So if you are not your conditions, issues, or challenges who are you? Let me know when you find out.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
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