At times I like playing with the Photo Booth app on my laptop. This week has been one of monumental changes for me. Some of them are bittersweet, but ultimately helpful. Others are golden opportunities on the road ahead.
There was a time in my life when I would try every single new energy healing technique that I heard about. I was convinced that it would be the "thing" that would solve all my problems. This drive to deal with painful personal issues was very useful in amassing my technical knowledge. They call this pattern the wounded healer archetype. Basically it means that your own pain drives you to search for answers which ends up helping other people. At some point most wounded healers hit a barrier where there is no further they can go until they heal their own wounds. I feel like I am at that point.
Feeling trapped in a re-ocurring pattern can be very frustrating. Breaking free of it can be traumatic. It is often messy. As you can see above I'm trying to escape from the matrix. I've been working on patterns of respect, self worth, and my relationship to material wealth. So you know nothing major. What's been interesting is how the pieces have been falling together while other parts of my life have been falling apart. At the same time, I've been experimenting with some new techniques and even had some work done by other practitioners. (What can I say energy wise I live dangerously).
Occasionally I work the wounded healer archetype pattern going in reverse. What I mean is that a client has an issue and during session work we create a strategy to harmonize it which I then can apply to my own situation. This was the case this past week relating to my concepts around wealth. Now I've always had enough, if just barely, but the anxiety around it being just enough has exerted too much influence on my decisions as to what my options are. After working with this client I remember even saying to them, "Wow I need to do this process for myself." Well I took my own advice and went into deep states of meditation and worked the process. I came out of it quite disorientated and a tiny bit anxious. This tends to be a sign that a core pattern of self has been moved, realigned, or changed entirely. For those not expecting this reaction it can create a cycle of increasing anxiety as one tries to find out what is wrong.
In the midst of all this I had a great opportunity come knocking at my door out of the blue. My initial reaction before the self work was to be a bit trepidatious. Now I'm getting excited about it instead. A friend once told me that the physiological symptoms of anxiety and excitement are the same, the only difference is how we interpret them. Anxiety is taxing to our system while a moderate amount of excitement is more tonifying. So before we label something as anxiety, we should always check to see if it is actually positive anticipation.
Why am I telling you this? Well we are all going to go through similar patterns and activities through out our life. The experience we have of these patterns will repeat unless we change the vibration of how we relate to them, and come out of phase with the less helpful ones.
So how about you? Are you finding yourself retreading the same paths, but with different window dressings? Are the patterns of interaction around you triggering old wounds? Do you find yourself making the same mistakes, or having the same complaints? Well if you are consider it an invitation to get to the root of the problem and come out of phase with it. It may be time to relate to it from a higher perspective. As we move into the holiday season many of us will be around family and old patterns will be switched on automatic pilot. Use this time to observe your piece of the collective pie of experiences. Find the piece of you that no longer fits the story. When you do, you are giving permission to others to begin their own transformational journey as well.
Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle
Beautifully said. ❤️
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