Musings

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Sunday, June 7, 2020

What is Owed

Greetings all,

One of my guides referred to the times we are living in now as the crucible.  Basically we are being put in a container where the fire is being turned up to burn out the inconsistencies. The burn off stage is one of the steps in the great work of alchemy.  Currently we are all being challenged to clarify ourselves in our thoughts and deeds.  We are seeing this on the societal level too.

Speaking of society, notice anything lately?  Everything is heightened.  I am not saying things are worse at the moment just that the contrasts are being sharply highlighted.  Many of the illusions we've clung to are being ripped away to reveal what lies beneath.  There is a widespread belief that if we have all the necessities of life while others do not that this comes from some sort of inherent trait or goodness on our part.  It allows us to write off people who aren't getting their needs met, putting it all on their personal choices.  If the pandemic has taught us anything, it is that our health and well being is interconnected.  We are as healthy as the least well off person we come into contact with. So maybe healthcare should be a right and not a privilege, just saying.

In the midst of the health and economic crisis we are also being forced to look at the inherent racism and inequality in our systems.  Let me be clear, racism affects everyone, but some bear the brunt of the burden.  Still it holds our whole society down.  We have spent so much energy and resources to keep people down that we don't have enough to support our citizens.  How many masks can a single canister of tear gas buy?  Perhaps the brilliant mind who could have found a treatment or a quicker route to a vaccine is in prison just because he was born black in America, and 'fit the description of a suspect'. We have for hundreds of years now had one of our hands tied up trying to push people down.  Where would we be now if we had just let people get up, or even lent a hand to help?  I don't know, and the fact that I have trouble even picturing it is part of the problem.

Why am I telling you this?  Why am I focusing so much on world events?  Well we are not born in a vacuum.  Our culture shapes and molds us.  Events in the world affect us.  We in Eurocentric cultures have been raised on the myth of the individual.  It's all about individual success and rights.  The problem is that we are not an individualist species.  There are species that are like that.  They get together during mating season and then go their separate ways.  The females raise the young and then they kick them loose.  Some of the great cat species are like that.  They are fine on their own.  They can take care of themselves.  They are strong individuals, but they also aren't building any world spanning civilizations.  Those are not built by individuals, but by collective effort.   Every road we drive on, every piece of food we eat, and every article of clothing we wear is made possible by incredible collaborations. For those die hard individualists I find it the height of hypocrisy that they claim they got there all by themselves.

In my last livestream on Youtube I talked about what we owe.  In this time of great upheaval and change we need to ask questions.  What do we owe to each other?  What do we owe to society? We also need to ask what do we owe to ourselves?  Most of us are in servitude to a system that doesn't care if we live or die.  It cares about maintaining power.  We should ask whether the economy should serve the people or if the people exist to serve the economy.  All lives are precious, but until Black Lives Matter, no lives will matter.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle

P.S.  Here is a link to some organizations that you can donate to that are working for change. https://mix247edm.com/blm-and-blm-lgbtq-charities-you-can-donate-to/

Wednesday, May 6, 2020

It's the End of the World as We Know It & I Don't Feel Fine

Greetings all,

We really must stop meeting like this.  The news is grim.  People are acting crazy.  There seems to be no end of the crisis in sight.  Our national leaders in the USA have abandoned us to worship the god of the marketplace.  Small businesses are drowning, people can't make rent, and healthcare is even harder to come by than it was before.

I will share that I have been told by my team of spirit helpers to wait.  If I try to look forward too much it makes me shiver.  This is the hard lesson of living in the moment.  The moment is uncomfortable.  The moment is scary and uncertain.  The moment is for me at least not bad on the surface as long as I don't try and project forward.  I am comfortable where I am physically.  I have food, shelter, and most of my basics met (as long as I don't need healthcare).  Still there is something definitely missing, and that something is a probable future.

All futures are up for grabs right now.  I said it in my last post the world we knew is gone.  Whatever version will rise to replace it, is not yet ready for the unveiling.  I want information from my guides, but I keep getting told, "Wait."  One did elaborate and said I could wait with purpose.  So I have been trying a few things here and there (mostly here though as there is no place to go).  I started experimenting in my studio.  Weird thing is that the experiments have mostly worked.  I am not used to success.  I had years of failures with recipes and techniques. It is rather uncanny and I am slow to trust this.  Of course I am slow to trust in general.

What makes something precious?  Is it the effort in its making?  Is it the time it took?  Is it the material cost?  Is it something else entirely?  While I am trying to avoid projecting forward to a return to what was, I am starting to wonder what would I like to see instead of the normal I knew.  Normal was slowly killing me and billions of others.  What could the new normal entail? Would it be better, and more importantly how do we get there from here?  So many questions and so few answers, and of the answers we have, none are comforting.

Why am I telling you this?  Well we have been in this crisis long enough for it to sink in how changed our world is.  There are some good signs like cleaner air and clearer skies alongside ominous signs of coming violence from those that want normal at ALL costs.  I hope we decide to become better people who value each other.  My faith in humanity is definitely at a low point these days, but maybe I am just being blinded by ugly outliers.  Maybe there are many more good people who care than there are cruel ones.  The cruel ones sure do make a lot of noise....and mess.

How about you?  Are you navigating the maze of madness of these times alright? Do you long for contact?  Do you know what it is that you miss?  Can you without referencing what was, focus on what you would like to experience when the darkness has passed finally?  What shape would you like the world to be?  What society would you like to live in?  What does it feel like?  How does it treat the least among us? Does that society provide for the needs of its people in a way that works for all or just for the few?  What can we learn from where we are so we choose more wisely where we are going?  Let me know what you come up with.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Lost World

Greetings all,

I hope you are keeping well in your isolation.  I have my up times and down times.  This past week has been more down for me.  It is just beginning to sink in how long this may go on for, and what that means for my life and for the lives of so many others.

I like many folks out there am feeling a profound sense of grief and loss.  It is the loss of the world I knew.  The loss of normal is profoundly disturbing to me.  I find this odd because normal was not working for me.  I know I am not alone in this especially here in the States.  Normal pretty much gave us this pandemic.  It prioritized profits over life.  It normalized politicians holding citizen's basic needs hostage to play power games.  It celebrated cruelty and racism.  It devalued the people that actually keep the economy and the people of our society alive.  It was a world that was all about constant consumption, productivity, and environmental depredation.  We were literally pillaging the future to pay for the present.

So if it was so horrible why are we mourning its loss?  Well it is what we knew, and because it is all most of us knew it feels like a part of us has been ripped away.  It also bears a striking similarity to being in a toxic relationship.  It was a hard lesson to learn that even when I left a relationship that was abusive and toxic I sometimes still missed the person. Missing them didn't mean I was wrong about leaving.  I think what is going on right now is we are missing our relationship with our toxic society, even though it wasn't good for us and was slowly (or in some cases not so slowly) killing us. Still even for those of us who wanted massive societal change, we are just as upset as those content with the status quo.  There is so much uncertainty right now.  We know the world is changing but we don't know where the new path is taking us.  Human beings don't like uncertainty, we do just about anything to avoid it.

I think beyond all of the habituation we miss what we thought of as ourselves and our place in the world, even if the place sucked.  We knew where we were, who we were, and had a reasonable idea of where we were going.  We miss the idea of our lives, and the shapes that it filled in our days.  So many of our distractions are gone right now.  Work, socializing, and shopping being the foremost in those distractions. When I complained to one of my guides how lonely I was feeling they reminded me that I had been lonely most of my life.  When I  pointed out that before the pandemic I could at least go out to the movies or a store, they said, "You are confusing commerce with connection."  They also pointed out that I am not alone in this confusion.

Why am I telling you this?  Well I am quite sure many of you have reached the stage where you are uncertain what shape the new world will take as the old world passes away.  Make no mistake there will be no going back to what was before.  Too many people have paid with their lives for that to happen.  The world of humanity has stopped in a way it hasn't for quite some time.  Many people are questioning whether we should keep things going in the same direction when we start this locomotion back up, or whether we should lay new tracks.

So how about you?  Are you grieving the lost world?  Are you apprehensive of what form the new world will take?  Do you find yourself questioning your goals and where you want to go next?  Do you feel unmoored lost in a sea of shadowy prospects?  Well that's where most of us are.  It's ok to not know where this is going and where you will fit into the overall picture.  For now allow yourself to grieve the world that was.  Let out the tears, make allies of your fears.  Once you have done that take stock of the beauty that remains in the world and in yourself.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle


Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Striking a Balance

Greetings all,

I hope you and your loved ones are staying safe.  I have been more vocal as of late, but have been doing live casts on Facebook in order to air my thoughts.  Some lovely lady made the meme of something I said and thus the picture here at the top.  The sad thing is that this is what people will see on my professional page when they click on the blog link.  Still if they want fake love and light sentiments I am probably not the professional for them.  When I love you, it's more than just a surface emotion.

So let us take stock. We are in the middle of history.  Technically we always are, but only sometimes are we aware of it.  I have found it hard to remain stable and centered in the past few weeks.  The first  week when I was laid off (temporarily...most likely) from one of my teaching jobs I was not able to do much of anything.  I have rebounded a little, but some days I just drift through the day.  Social media has been both a blessing and a curse in this time.  It keeps me able to chat with many friends, but also I see the horrors again and again in the newsfeeds.

Hope is important, but I also feel like right now people are misusing it to try and not feel the grief of what we are going through.  People are dying and more will die yet.  The social fabric of our lives has  been torn asunder.  Here in the U.S. we have been given a hard lesson of just how vulnerable the majority of us are to disaster, and how little our representatives and leaders have our backs.  The lie of the land is that we are a place of opportunity,  I have seen three different responses one on the white lighter end of the spectrum and the other being on the conspiracy theory end of things.  Then there are those who are in denial.

So on the white light side of things you have folks saying this is all part of the plan of ascension and transformation.  We're going to be entering some kind of Golden Age where everyone stops being dicks, and loves one another.  For a Golden Age it sure is starting off with a lot of greed and blood.  Now I do think that this is a turning point in history, but I don't think the outcome is set in stone.  Will we change our ways and how we organize our society to take care of our brothers and sisters?  Will we begin to let the Earth heal?  I hope so, but if we do it will take collective action not just prayer and affirmations.  We have to be willing to face where we've allowed our own selfishness and apathy to contribute to the calamities of the world. We also have to be willing to change our own behavior and expectations.  Everything is not going to be alright, some people are going to lose that which they love the most for whatever world emerges out of this.  If we want to honor them and give that loss meaning, then we best be willing to act and hold people accountable.  Like it says in the meme, "Love and Light are not condoms."  They don't protect us from our own actions or inactions.

Now on the other side of this we have the doomsayers.  The illuminati preachers, the 5G apocalypsers, and the anti-vaxxer syndicate.  I will say this.  Conspiracies aren't that intricate, all you have to do is follow the money.  Really the culprits for this abominable response to a global crisis are not hard to spot.  I don't need to name them, if you can't figure out who they are you're not smart enough to understand this post.  I realize that was snarky, but my nerves are frayed.  Snarky is what I have left in the tank these days.  Posting these doom and gloom vast conspiracy plots online they seek to control the fear they feel by shoving it into a familiar compartment.  Just like the white lighters they are not committed to dealing with what is in front of them.

So that leaves us the deniers.  These folks always downplay things.  The climate is not changing, and even if it is we're not to blame.  Even if we are to blame, we can't do anything about it.  If we could do something about it then the economy would be ruined.  Oddly enough these old arguments have just been substituted for the virus.  It's not that serious.  Well it's not serious except for old people or sick people.  It's just like the flu.  It's better that some people die rather than ruining the economy.  I don't know how to explain to people that they should care that their actions can inadvertently kill someone.  Maybe not someone they know, but someone who matters to somebody.  Maybe it comes from having a culture of disposability.  We throw so much out right after we're done with it. I think that we've  over the years started to see people the same way.  When they serve no more use for us, we just dispose of them.

Why am I telling you this?  Well I find that expressing myself seems to be my way of dealing with the fear that the current crisis evokes.  I also want to impress upon you how much your actions in this time matter. The failings of our society are being exposed in high contrast.  We will have a narrow window to act to change things for the better, but that change is not guaranteed without our continued efforts.  It is easy to be sucked into the black holes of denial, fantasized spiritual optimism, or the web of conspiracies.  It is much more difficult to stand centered in who we are, and choose who we want to be in this pivotal moment.  Make no mistake this is a fulcrum of history, but even if we do change for the better it will still be a tragedy.  It will be a tragedy because we could have decided to do better without having so many people die.  We could have averted much of the coming suffering if we realized earlier that our own well being is intrinsically linked to everyone's well being.

How about you?  Are you balancing between trying to maintain hope amidst crisis while acknowledging the fear and grief?  Are you giving your power to false idols with pie in the sky philosophies?  Are you sure that you and you alone know the true movers and players in this world wide game of Risk?  Well slow down there slick, maybe you just need to sit with your feelings and have a good cry in the shower.  When you're done call one of your friends and check up on them, because right now the one thing we can do (and absolutely should do) is be kind.  If nothing else let us learn that our actions towards others have consequences, and that we should weigh those carefully.   Welcome to the new world, please treat it and each other well.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle

Saturday, March 14, 2020

Fear Shaming

Greetings all,

Well now that many of you are self isolating you have no excuse for not taking the time to read my blog post.  I literally have a captive audience,  "ALL SHALL READ ME AND DESPAIR!!!"  (Sorry I was channeling some Lord of the Rings energy).

 Pretty sure this post will follow in the series of what I like to call , "Suck it LOA".  (Law of Attraction) Many of us right now are thinking fuck, shit, the world is insane!!!  It is, and some of us are pointing fingers at people who are afraid and making fun of them.  Well if you are doing that, you are being a dick.  Yes you, right there complete and total dick.  For those of us in the consciousness community the so called 'spiritual' folk, there has developed a hierarchy of emotions.  Things like love, joy, and peace sit at the top with the less fun emotions at the bottom.  We are told to shun these low vibration feelings.  You know because it is perfectly natural to only feel the good emotions, we are told to anesthetize ourselves to loss, fear, pain, and sadness.

I cancelled all my events, classes, and trips for the next few weeks (possibly months).  Prior to that I changed how I taught my classes,  and emphasized extra hygiene practices to minimize risks.  I teach to people in high risk categories for extra complications from COVID-19.  While I may be okay, I live with someone who has asthma and my teaching in various community centers puts vulnerable populations at risk.  So I have been extra cautious.  People have been making fun of me or implying I am flakey with my commitments.  Sheesh it's only a pandemic after all. Now that we are being asked to self isolate I see people attacking policies that are meant to mitigate the risks to the members of our community that have the most reason to be afraid.  Some people are treating me like I am somehow less spiritual than they thought.  (Oooh burn!) I have been upfront with folks for years that I am a person, not a guru, not an ascended master, and certainly not immune to the human condition.

Let me be clear.  If you are ranking emotions, then you are not being more evolved, you are just buying into a different illusion.  Fear is one of the first emotions that developed and for very good reason.  It keeps us alive.  Fear tries to keep us safe. It is our inner guardian.  It alerts us to danger, it preps our body to flee or fight.  You don't know what you are truly capable of until you fear for your life or the life sf someone you love.  The thing is we don't like being afraid, we try to get rid of the feeling as fast as possible.  Your fear is a part of you, when you give it away you are giving away part of yourself.  When we try to rid ourselves of it others can come take a hold of it, and then they control our fear.  If we claim it and accept it, then we can control our response to it.  Sometimes it dissipates, and sometimes not.  The point again is not to rid ourselves of it, but to join with it and become whole.  I have been afraid for myself, for my loved ones, my community, and the world.  You can't shame me out of my fear, it is mine so hands off fuckers!

Why am I telling you this?  Well many are afraid right now.  Fear is as much a part of us as love and joy.  To deny it, is to deny ourselves and our power to act.  If you are afraid, then be afraid, and then ask what your fear would like from you.  Trying to push it down or send it away just makes it operate in the background without the input of the rational mind.  Hence people buying up all the toilet paper.

How about you?  Are you listening to your fear?  Do you know what it wants to give to you, or are you trying to self isolate from yourself?  Sink into your heart.  Invite it in.  Give it the same loving attention that you give to the brighter feelings when they come to call.  It is not easy, but it is worthwhile.  I love you all and I hope you are keeping safe.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle

P.S.  I did a teleconference related to what is going on, and made it available to the public on Patreon  click on the link to listen to it. https://www.patreon.com/posts/34781838

Sunday, February 23, 2020

Being a Stand Out Person

Greetings all,

Here is a picture from a restorative week I had back in October.  I could use that again.

I haven't written much as I have been trying to get some other tasks done.  Today I finally got up the new web site with less than a month to go before the whole thing vanished. For my next trick I need to finish planning and creating materials for a day long workshop I plan to teach locally and in NYC. Work, work for a single hand will but little work command.  When you work for yourself like I do, it can seem like there is never a break.  (It's true I don't get sick days or paid vacation, and my healthcare premiums are double or triple yours).

As I watch the political drama unfold, I am concerned.  I am worried that someone like me who walks a path that is not well understood and far from the mainstream will end up with representatives that don't think I should be able to get the necessities of life unless I do things the way everyone else does.  We have built a world where the many support the few to the detriment of the Earth, to its creatures, and to its people. I am one of those people. The work I do is designed to help people restore harmony in themselves and their life.  In times past I would have been a valued member of a community, but the world has changed.  My skills don't translate immediately into increased sales, stock revenues, or market dominance.  What I do is for the people and for the Earth.  It is not easy to stand out.

Why am I telling you this?  Well you should know that even with all the tools at my disposal I struggle too.  I sometimes despair.  I too lose sleep with worry over the future.  Besides if you're not worried about the state of our world, you are not paying attention.  Aside from the societal troubles we have a climate crisis unfolding.  A crisis that could burst the soap bubble of civilization that we've been living in for the past few hundred years. Our species might not make it.  This is not alarmism, this is a probable future, and I deal in probable futures.

In these times of uncertainties I have no great solution to the troubles of the world.  I  offer one piece of advice only.  Try to be kind.  Try to live in the understanding that what ever you may be going through others are as well.  If you have no recourse left, then just try and be kind.  It may not fix your situation.  It might not change the course that history takes.  It will however change you, and those that you meet along the path.  If you are weighed down by grief let it make you kinder.  If you are afraid let it make you kinder.  If you are in pain let it make you kinder.  Kindness in a dark time or place may one day light a path to healing.  I hope you receive kindness on your journey and I hope that you pass it on.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle

P.S.  Here's the new website  https://thomasmooneagle.com

Monday, January 27, 2020

How to be a friend



Greetings all,

First post of the year.  I'm still trying to define my new relationship with this blog.   Mostly I am waiting until I have something worthwhile to say, which is honestly not a weekly occurrence.  If I hear myself speaking in loops or having a particularly juicy conversation with someone I may make a mental note to perhaps explore it here.

I had planned to write about the misconceptions of my work, but it seemed a bit self indulgent and whiny.  I scrapped it and decided to write about what it takes to keep a Mooneagle in your life.  I have labored under the impression that I am a difficult person to get along with.  I'd like to say that this is not true, but I know I have my moments.  I am temperamental, and when I finally make up my mind about something I can be pretty inflexible.  I am weird and unlikely to fit in to most crowds or groups.  I couldn't fit in if I tried, and believe me I have tried.

If you still want a Mooneagle like me in your life here's what I need.  The first thing I need is your attention.  As the last born in a family, I can tell you attention is key.  The second thing I need is kindness.  I really can't stress this one enough folks, kindness will get you just about anything.  I remember kindness, I remember cruelty too, but that will get you a different kind of result.  Acceptance is also non-negotiable.  Yes I know I am not perfect (you should hear what my mind chatter says about me....bastard), but the more accepting you are the better I become.  Also I like to be included in things, even if I can't make it, I'm always touched by an invitation.

There are a few things you probably should not do.  Do not consider texting as quality interaction or support.  Texts are for quick check ins and quick questions and answers.  I require actual spoken language.  Do not patronize what I do, it is not a hobby.  I know it is strange and can seem exciting but I am not a magical mascot to be trounced out at parties for amusement.  (Yes this actually has happened).  I am an actual person with actual feelings, and my beliefs about spirit are no more ridiculous than anyone who believes in anything non-physical.  That doesn't mean you have to believe what I believe, just don't be a dick about it.

Why am I telling you this?  Well I read in the last few months from someone online that you shouldn't hang around with folks that make you feel like you are hard to love.  I spent a lot of time in my earlier days with folks like that, foolishly running after folks begging them to love me.  It has made me very insular. So I don't want to do that anymore.  In listing out what I would like out of friends and relationships it gives me permission to see what I want and don't want.  I don't think it is all that much to ask for.

What about you?  Have you ever really listed what you actually need from your relationships? We so often waste time pondering whether we are good enough for someone else, only to fail to wonder if they are bringing anything to the table.  Relationships are work, they take time and care.  We should evaluate them to make sure they are nourishing us as well.   We need to rid ourselves of the belief that we're lucky if anyone deigns to be a part of our life.  We should be grateful for our loved ones, provided that they are in fact loving.  So make your lists, and remember you have something of value to offer others, your time and your heart.

Peace and Blessings,
Thomas Mooneagle