Sunday, April 29, 2018
I hope this message finds you well and safe. I've been feeling blessed lately as it seems my constant efforts are finally starting to pay off. I can see the life I've dreamed of finally taking focus around me. Still there are things that remain elusive.
This year I've finally had the opportunity to consistently use my talents in session work with clients. Things are becoming more steady and I'm having to really check my calendar before I say yes to anything. I find that a good problem to have (if we want to label it a problem which I don't). I feel like I'm finally finding a rhythm with session work where I can relax into it. When I opened my practice 8 years ago (I know I can hardly believe it myself), it was kind of frustrating because each session I had to figure out what I was doing. Every single one was different, even if it was with the same client. Now when I see someone whether for the first time or as a regular client, I am used to the variability. I do have some things I check on regularly, but other than that anything can happen.
The nice thing about each session being different is that I can't get bored or complacent. Each time I see someone it is like a puzzle. Sometimes I just look at a person and I know exactly what to do, even before they arrive. Other times I have to spend a few moments finding my way into the session. Just finding out what we're working on is not always so cut and dry. People come to me for a variety of reasons, some with very specific goals or problems. However I go where I am led and that is not always where the person had intended. Whatever brought them to me may have just been a way for some other deeper pattern to be healed. There are also people that just want to have an experience and have a very soft focus. That holds a different challenge, how do you measure the success of an undefined goal?
So where do I start? Well the first thing I do is set up the space, I may be drawn to pull certain items out or burn a particular incense. This might be a clue to the work that will be done. I also select some ambient music to drown out any noise from the hall. This may also be significant (or not). Then I set up my mesa, which could be open or closed for the session. If I do open it up, how I arrange the stones and tools upon it might also clue me in to what patterns are moving in a person's life. After the space is set and the client arrives, I ask them directly how they are, and why they are here. Sometimes I move the mesa around a bit while chatting, explaining as I do so what that means. So after the chit chat, and the arranging of the space I take my first look. I see if there is anything on or around the person that is drawing my attention. Then I zero in on that and investigate, see if I need to remove something or bring something in. From there the session develops and flows, as I work I ask the client for feedback on their experience as I make adjustments in their energy field. This conversation sometimes is just to confirm with them that they can track what I'm doing, but other times the information or feelings that come up for them become the guiding force for the rest of the session. If I get stumped, I take a step back, engage the client again and ask for guidance. Now sometimes my guides and helpers just take over and just tell me what to do, which is awesome because I don't have to tax my brain as much for that. Usually the sessions that are taken over by Spirit are the most powerful ones, but not always. Sometimes the sessions where I've had to dig deep to find what is really going on are the most valuable ones. Like I said before each one is different.
So why am I telling you all this? Well I think it is important for people to get a glimpse of how I work. It is also important for you guys to know that I sometimes do get stumped. I end up doing spiritual troubleshooting half the time. It used to annoy me, but now I just see it as part of the job. It definitely keeps things interesting. A client recently asked me about whether I doubt myself ever. I told them all the time. I think that's normal and healthy as long as I don't let it get in the way of the work. If you think you know everything, you never search for more. Life may have routines but is not rote. Life is constant change and being able to figure things out on the go is important.
So how about you? Are you running too much on autopilot, or are you always reinventing the wheel? Do you examine the myriad ways in which you troubleshoot your own life every day? Do you imagine others just have the answers in hand, or are you aware that they had to flex their thinking bits? The mind can be a tremendous servant for all our work, so it is a good idea to include its many gifts where we can to help us navigate. So challenge yourself to think through things, and work with the puzzles in your life. Find your own way into the maze, and more importantly find your way through it to the other side.
Peace and Blessings,
Friday, April 20, 2018
I hope your week has treated you well. There has been change in the air. Weather continues to surprise us with seasons coming and going and coming again. I've been blessed to take part in and lead ceremonies this week.
Of late people have been talking about me. They've been saying good things. One thing that has come up several times in the past week is that people have been referring to me as powerful. I always step back from that label. It triggers me to self deprecate. I've issues with power, I prefer to be called effective. The funny thing is the 'power' animal that has been with me longest is one that is all about reclaiming and uncovering personal power.
I've said before that when you are in alignment with your true power you can't harm anyone with it. Reading that statement to myself I am aware that I fear hurting someone with power. So I set limits on myself, which often leads to me being hurt. I think our society confuses power with control. Those that pull strings, manipulate, and frighten are seen as powerful. The truly powerful inspire people towards change without force. The light within them sparks the light within others. They don't control others, they just have an effect on them. (Hence my preference for being referred to as effective). When people have an intense session with me they assume I'm in control, but it is not so. The more powerful a session, the less control I have over it, and I prefer it that way. In shamanism there is the concept of being the hollow bone. Basically you are the pathway the healing moves through not the source of it. The more I get out of the wa,y the more effective I am for those that seek me out. So when people call me powerful part of me rebels because I am not the source of that power.
I got to meet one of the Q'ero healers this past week. It was a great gift. He did several blessings and ceremonies for me. I felt the energy, but the real gift was seeing that he was like me. He was dedicated and effective, but I got to see that I was as effective in my own way. I had taken the teaching of the Q'ero to heart as well as the other pathways I follow, and it had germinated within me. I had access to the same power. So when someone called me powerful this week I replied with, "Anyone can be powerful if they are dedicated."
So why am I telling you this. Well like I said above anyone can be powerful. In fact everyone can be powerful. It just takes dedication. Your power might be in how you provide financially for your loved ones. It might be in how you nourish others with lovingly prepared food. It might be your words that soothe or inspire hearts. Your talents and insights might bring needed change. Your fortitude may be a shield for those that are afraid. Then again it might just be your presence, sometimes just showing up is powerful. As we move forward we need to expand our understanding of what it means to be powerful. We are not all warriors, nor should we all be. So in this time of change, when light and dark spar through our societies, it is important to remember that we can be powerful and effective. It is our mission to cultivate that light we have inside, if we do so the power we need will be provided.
Peace and Blessings,
Sunday, April 15, 2018
I for once am getting my blog out before the weekend is over. It seems these past few months it has been a struggle to get it done with everything going on. I'm not complaining, for the most part I have been pleasantly occupied and building good foundations to support my future endeavors.
This past week I launched a new service on my site aimed at prosperity. I have had an abundance energy download on my site for a long time which is a good product, but I believe abundance is just half of the equation when it comes to financial success. One of things I've discovered is that abundance is tied to nature, and nature is rife with it. It is the normal state of living things. While scarcity does happen in the cycle, it is temporary and the system of life has so much built into it that if an organism plans well and manages their energies they can thrive. That is where prosperity comes into play. I think of prosperity as what we do with the abundance of the world. It is our interaction pattern which will determine whether we thrive and 'prosper' or if we'll struggle along.
Most of us have gotten a lot of negative ideas about money passed down from our families. Some of us have patterns from old soul agreements laid down in former lives. We also culturally have a dubious relationship with money because of its very visible misuse in our governments and societies. For those of us in the healing arts, we are often shamed for thinking about our work as something that should profit ourselves. One of my shamanic teachers told me that we don't go to the same level of energy to solve a problem, we either go a level down or a level up from it. The energetic blueprint of our finances often has distortions around it at the level of the mind, which recruits energy from our emotional body to reinforce it, which then directs how we see and act upon opportunity. Well to bypass that I came up with a method that addresses our agreements around money and prosperity at the level of the soul.
I accidentally came upon this idea during a client session that had very consistent blocks with money that we couldn't seem to address any other way. Afterwards I thought I should do the process on myself, so I did. Then I spent the next 6 months beta testing it before I put it out on the market. I learned a lot during that time. I was amazed at how people were so different in their approach to wealth. As far as how it showed up for me: I was offered more classes and clients, I became more visible professionally in holding leadership positions, and I became less scared at investing and spending money. I stopped feeling so trapped by money and started using it more effectively. Do I still have limiting thoughts and feel in the space of lack, yes I do, but I also have a contract with Spirit and my own soul about how I want my relationship with money to be. So whenever I choose to do something in alignment with that, it creates more of that energy. So yes I am tooting my own horn here because I am proud of the work I do.
So why am I telling you all this? Well I want everyone to do well. We get locked into thinking patterns and while I don't want people to suppress their thoughts or feelings, I think it is good to check out from spirals that only take you down. At the same time, I don't believe in punishing yourself for not having "manifesting mind patterns". We are all going to have times where we just don't feel the magic and we eat from the table of scarcity economics. I think it is more a sum of our habitual patterns of thought and deed that matter. We have to learn when to risk and when to play it safe. There is no right way to go about a prosperous life because there are no two people exactly alike. I do think that there is a unique way for each of us to find our prosperity, and I'm excited when someone does. It gives us another positive role model when that happens.
So how about you? Do you constantly say no to opportunity out of habit? Do you overlook your own potential? Do you refuse a gift or help when offered? Well maybe you should stop that shit and follow through on your dreams. Maybe you should formulate some ideas and start building towards them. I can shower you with manifesting energy, but you have to actually sprinkle it over the events of your life to make good. I hope you do. I hope you prosper, because when we all do well, we all do well.
Peace and Blessings,
Sunday, April 8, 2018
I hope your week was good and full. You may have been a bit more fortunate and actually have had spring, it's been uncharacteristically absent for me so far this month. I am eager to welcome the warmer times of the year...soon.
These past two weeks I've been getting back to basics with clients. When I officially opened my healing practice eight years ago I was leaning heavily on my shamanic techniques, specifically the mesa. I've kept that as part of my toolkit, but I'd ventured more into quantum tracking and transformational energy healing. Lately the mesa practice has been taking center stage again and I am excited to see where I am with it this time around.
For those of you who are unfamiliar, a mesa is simply a collection of sacred stones wrapped in a cloth. It is a portable altar. When you create a mesa, it is you. It is your heart's fire. So working with the heart is extremely important. I have been working a lot on mine so as the mesa practice becomes more prominent I am noticing things are flowing differently for me.
This week I had some depossession work come to my office. I was helping to remove entities and stray energies out of a person so that they could heal and embody more of their own soul's essence. Well I encountered what I refer to as a Mr. Grumpy Pants. I knew it was one because of the client's reports of terror and then rage. Those are two big indicators of a Mr. Grumpy Pants type of being. In shamanic circles they are often called suffering beings or the suffering ones. In more European cultures they refer to them as something else (I bet you can guess what). Now the reason I call them a Mr. Grumpy Pants (I suppose it could Ms. as well but I've never checked under the hood for that distinction) is that I don't want to attach any extra fear or give them an aura of power that they've not earned. In the Andean tradition there is no good or evil only light and heavy. A Mr. Grumpy pants is an entity that carries a lot of heaviness with it. This is no fun for anyone including them. You see a depossession is not just a healing of the client, but also of the energies that are stowing away in them. The spirits I work with take them away for their own healing and restoration.
I don't know why but this week when I encountered pants with a bit of the grump in them I had a different reaction than in the past. Usually I am very firm and somewhat annoyed. As my client was telling me about their experience I had compassion beaming out of my heart. I pretty much stayed in that space for the whole session. It made everything so much easier. It made taking direction from spirit flow effortlessly. I have had other sessions in the past where tremendous healing has occurred and the common thread in them seems to be that my heart was open and the compassion of Spirit came through and bathed the room in that energy. So while I do believe that learning and perfecting different techniques is important, it is the heart and the compassion that it generates which causes the most profound shifts.
So why am I telling you this? Well I was pretty jazzed up about the session, as was my client. Finding that compassionate space in my heart and allowing my helpers through was as healing for me as it was for the client. We have a lot of cultural ideas built around the idea that love is a struggle. Love is not a battlefield, it is not a fight, it is a space of flow without agenda. Coming into a situation with compassion transforms the nature of the interaction, whether it is with friend or perceived foe. It can be hard to do sometimes, but when you succeed it is very powerful. Power is not always about struggle and overcoming, it can be equally about embracing and aligning.
So how about you? Are you falling into battle rather than falling into love? Do you defuse conflicts with your wild wide open heart? Do you glory in your opponents defeat or do you look for the win win? Do you see emotions and sweetness as weak? If you do remind me to introduce you to the Ocean Mother sometime, so loving, so giving, and yet one of the most powerful forces on the planet. The power of love is not just an inspiration for pop songs, it is the raw power of all life. So drink deeply from the power of life and until next week.
Peace and Blessings,
Monday, April 2, 2018
Happy Easter/Passover or (insert spring festival celebration here). Hope you had a festive weekend filled with good company and good food. I've been watching the tell tale signs of new growth coming across the land despite a colder spring. Weather can be capricious, but then so can I.
Systems range from highly ordered to highly disordered. The best ones in my opinion fall somewhere in the middle. Too much order and you get stagnation, too much disorder and everything falls apart. I am the disorder in a system. It's part of my role, mischievous me, trickster in training. I like to see how the pieces of a pattern fit together. I like to push against those places that have too much order. Fun and games help me balance this nature so that I don't become too destructive.
I would like to add that I'm not against rules, I'm just against ones that make no sense. When I encounter those, if I can get around them it makes me feel warm and tingly inside. Well I got that chance this week. I had an appointment with a friend at their studio for some bodywork. They were going to set me on fire (metaphorically speaking) in the name of alchemical science. I probably should have used the bathroom at my office before I left, but I didn't want to be late. So I arrived hoping to use the facilities. Unfortunately the one good bathroom was off of the event room and it was booked that day. Now technically there is another bathroom, but it's well how do I put it, a bit murdery. It makes me think of horror movies and getting shanked while I am answering nature's call. So we set off on an epic quest to find a bathroom that had less homicidal overtones.
We wandered far over concrete stairs, and unfinished floors twisting round and round the expansive space, encountering Lovecraftian corridors. We found no bathrooms, but did uncover a back way into the event room which happened to be empty at the time. My friend looked at me and I said, "Oh we are so Nancy Drewing this." So the quest was complete, the promised bathroom found, and we got away with it too with none the wiser.
So why am I telling you about this tale of plumbing and sneaking? Well a lot of us get caught up on the "rules". It is important to remember that just because a rule exists doesn't automatically make it right. There is a long history that continues to this day of laws that are downright cruel. Order can be just as destructive as chaos. It can kill you as surely as chaos can, the pathway is just different. There are times when for your own good or the good of others you have no choice but to break the rules. Do yourself a favor, do not over internalize rules, they exist as a framework for the common good. When they aren't functioning that way they need to be changed.
Peace and Blessings,
P.S. Do pick up your dog's poop though, I mean that's just rude when you don't. It spreads diseases when it isn't disposed of properly.