Saturday, March 4, 2017
Return to Innocence
I hope you've had a good week. I've just been running trying to keep up with rate that things are changing. The more things change, the more things change. Ah you thought I was going to say "The more things change the more they stay the same." Well I used to think my life moved in cycles, but now I am beginning to think it moves in spirals. I have yet to discover if those spirals are going outward or deeper within. However considering the complex physics of my mind and dreamscapes I wouldn't put it past my destiny to do both.
Innocence, a force that is simultaneously as powerful as a waterfall and as delicate as butterfly wings. It is what we treasure and idealize in children. Innocence in our culture is something we lose, indeed it is with great relish that some people seem to go about grinding that trait right out of those that don't abandon it quickly enough. We also for some unknown reason seem to pair it with sexual awareness and experience, because natural processes are somehow impure and suspect. (I know what gives?) I really don't define innocence in that way, I see it as more an open heartedness to the world, approaching life's experience with a degree of wonder, love, and gratitude. Innocence is not ignorance in my book it is a simplicity of interaction.
Now when I came into magic working with others I was innocent. I was trusting and open. I wanted to get along with everyone and share all the wonders I was seeing. It was the same reaction that I had when encountering beings in spirit. I was walking around in wonderland, well just like Alice I got into some trouble. See when you're really innocent, you're not very discerning of people. I had several years where I was repeatedly taken advantage of, and outright attacked and abused within the magical community. The bloom was off the rose by then and I sort of retreated into myself. I still encountered many people, some very good, but I wasn't very open with many people or indeed open much at all.
Some of you may think that this is all part of maturing, and learning to discern intent is definitely part of that. Finding out where you belong, or at least where you don't belong is totally part of the growing into adulthood journey. I don't think we should be wide open to every person and situation, because quite simply too many people (and beings) do not have our best interests at heart. Still lately I've been thinking that I need to return to some of that simplicity and trust. For one thing innocence is essential with working with the energies of Faery. WAIT don't stop reading yet. I swear this shit is real. (Oh yeah my innocence is not exactly measured by how clean my vocabulary is because I can be a mouthy son of a bitch). Working in the natural energies of Faery has for me been some of the most sacred and powerful magic I've ever experienced. It is just so me, and yet as I have trained in more human systems of energy work I've spent less time with my dear cousins in the green realm.
Now to work with the faery you have to be in the right place in your heart otherwise it won't go well. You can't have ulterior motives. You have to hold innocence when you're doing the work, or at least good hearted mischievousness, and really if you can manage both those things you'll be a rockstar in the toadstool circles. People always ask me well what is faery magic good for which always struck me as odd. To me the point of it was to work with them and to feel them with me as I moved through the world in a magical way. That's not to say that it isn't useful, because they are masters at healing, manifesting, protection, and illusion. They also inspire and delight. To me they just make the world a better more awe inspiring place.
So why I am telling you all this? Well whether you're in with the fey or not, it might be time to set aside those jaded reactions. We are living in times of great change and upset. These are the times when the legends can walk amongst us again. If we wish to walk with them we'll have to shed some of the cynicism. That doesn't meant we ignore our sense of things being fishy, but it does mean we should suspend our mindset until we get a clear feeling. Instead of instantly rejecting something or someone, perhaps just thinking, "Well let's see which way this goes,", is more appropriate. If you like me constantly find that you are holding yourself back then maybe it is time to let what is in you flow. Don't be shy about the yearnings of your heart. Now is not the time to accept mediocrity, now is the time to return to the innocent expectation of great and good things. If not now then when? If not you than whom? Just let your heart love, let your mind heal, and above all hold yourself like the shining star your body was forged in.
Peace and Blessings,